7/12/10 On the Flight to Dublin

I've delayed starting to write for months, telling myseflf I would wait until I actually started my journey. A roller coaster of emotion hopefully eases into an acceptance of the unexpected. Today was a great day with Doug but my stomach has had butterflies the entire time. I've talked to a couple of friendly people which reminds me that people are just as eager to talk to new people as I am. I have been constantly reminded of basic wisdom lately, and I hope that understanding and guidance will follow my steps. I can't help but think of all of the parts of my life which have led to this moment. Learning about religion, history, what I've seen in life and in movies. I am aware of the things people have done in the recent thousands, and hundreds, and few years which allow me to be here now. May God's hand guide me. The Lord is my Shepherd. I shall not want. He leads me down in green pastures. He restores my soul. Though I may walk to the valley of the shadow of death, I do not fear death, but embrace it, for you and your hand i with me and I accept wherever it is that I may go joyfully and with a willing heart. I shall fear no danger, because my cup overruns with your blessings. Surely goodness and mercy will follow me, and even if I'm homeless, I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. My home is his Earth.